
I return to love instead of reacting from survival
Today I release the belief that I must achieve, fix, or overperform to be worthy of love.
I have chased high goals.
I have moved the target.
I have judged myself even after winning.
But today I stop running.
I am not here to earn love.
I am here to embody it.
The trauma may be familiar,
but it is not my identity.
When old survival patterns rise,
I will pause and ask:
“Is this danger… or is this memory?”
I choose present peace over past programming.
I choose softer speech over sharp reaction.
I choose silence when silence protects my power.
I release pressure that was never mine to carry —
old expectations, old voices, old versions of myself.
I stop apologizing for:
My growth.
My pace.
My healing process.
My humanity.
Before the chores.
Before the ministry.
Before proving anything —
I sit with myself.
I breathe.
I remember who I am.
I am not behind.
I am not broken.
I am building.
And I will walk this out like the boss queen I am —
not in force,
but in steady, grounded, undeniable light.
Love and light to all… and so it is.
Rev. Angela July | Still I Rise Ministries